My Apologies

For the lack of posting. I've been working on college apps in the afternoons and my Aunt Gloria has invited herself over to my Grandmother's for a week, so we've been making disgusting foods with mushrooms and spice cake for her.'

Inspiration!!!

K-Dunst in Marie Antoinnette

Food: 128.2. YOU HEARD RIGHT. AFTER I LOST 2.8 LBS, I LOST ANOTHER 1.8 LB. I have reason now to believe that there IS a God out there, and that He must appreciate something I have done lately.

O Lawdy, Praise Him!!

Praisin' praisin'

Life: Aside from being in the 120's again (yayayayayayayay) I've had a bit of fun with my baby cousins lately (and Casey, yes. He came over Saturday and Sunday, and I think we're seeing a movie today.) and my brother got the lead role in his school play, Fiddler on the Roof. Funny, because in my school play (mandatory in the 8th grade) I tried out for...a non speaking role. And I got it. Yay. My mom says the only thing she remembers about my play is me bitching for not wanting to wear a sweater that I thought emphasized my fat rolls. Such is life. She's freaking out now, poor dear. I'll practice with Matthew for sure, but first I have to practice my Yiddish.

After I jogged this morning I had a 100 cal fruit cup for breakfast, but I got so full feeling that I threw about 1/4 of it away. My mother will be pissed--"what??? I JUST changed the trash bag, and now you throw in fruit that will rot and smell for the next week??"

I'll toss some Febreze in there before she gets home.
I'm off to get some bloodwork done--putting a rather large bandaid over my scars, which I have been treating every day obsessively.

Mwahhh, my dears.

Black Swan

Life: I finally saw Black Swan!!! It was amazing, and extremely inspiring. Natalie Portman was amazing, and I could literally feel my heart pounding in the last few minutes. LYKE SOOOO THRILLER.

Uhh Casey and I hung out again. We were supposed to go to that pizza place again--he lurves it--but we got there and he was like "smooch before dinner?" and I did (obvs) and we ended up staying in his car for like, an hour and a half. I can still smell his shampoo on my shirt haha.

So he's sweet. He's always like, "eat! little short stuff" and although I know that is total bullshit, its adorable anyway.

Oh wait--he goes back to Kansas in February fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkk.

Food: I LOST TWO POINT EIGHT POUNDS!!!! AND I WORKED TODAY, JOGGED, LAUGHED MY ABS OFF, AND NEVER HAD DINNER. SCOREEEEEE!!!  i THINK---whoa no caps now--I think I ate like....530 cals today.

awesome. Im going to sleep now too, so thanks you guys for being awesome, and boosting me up to 52 followers

(my computer keyboard is still being a fumb duck)

Made my head spin...

Food: shared a bit of stromboli with Casey--just a weeedly bite though. So I'm hoping for a loss tomorrow.

Life: He smells good. And he has soft lips. I officially luuurve stalker boy.
Erin lost her b-ball game, and she was pissed, but he drove me out for pizza and we made out in his car afterward.

I'mm tiiirreeedd!!

Hey guys--I'm late posting for yesterday, but early for today.

Food: I've had like, 50 cals of juice so far and I've burned an extra 130 cals this morning, so hopefully that will make a difference.

I dunno if its my cold or what, but I've gained two pounds. Right back where I started at 133.
It's like these three pounds are ENDLESS. I feel like I will never see the 120's again, but I miss them like I dont know what.

Bought some Vita E capsules because I am trying to get rid of these ugly SI scars on my wrists.
The Vita E smells like old vagina. It's gross. I can't even put on a shirt because I'm afraid it will ooooze and infect my shirt and I'll smell like a pussy for the rest of the day.

When I get ready to go to school, I'm wrapping up my arm and spraying perfume on it. Just going all out to get rid of the stank.

Think M is changing schools, because of the yeast thing, and everything else
I feel so guilty-I havent gotten a good sleep since we got in our rather nasty spat. I feel like a jerk--I know I should have been calmer but I was so pissed and I acted on my emotions and UGH.

I would go to Church, but they would prolly kick me out.

Painted my nails mint green with little pink hearts, and I'm about to do my eyebrows. Tonight's the basktball game--hope it goes well, and that there's not too much food there!!!

xxooo

Aw Yeah, Skype Aw Yeah

One of my friends from inpatient messaged me on FB and said to make a SKYPE to keep in touch.
SO I did--here's mi nombre: erinrose892 and it will have a widdle sepia picture of me on it.

I don't have a webcam but I am hoping I can scrape enough cash together to buy on.

Happy Thursday--I've already purged three times :&

Just Kind of a Wednesday

Fewd: Kay. I purged after lunch today, even though I didn't binge. I don't really understand what went on there, but I threw up like everything. I had a salad for dinner and a bite size tootsie roll...Not sure how many cals to count--I don't want to overestimate how many I spewed up, so I'm going to say like...1500.

Inspiration!

Yeah, Mila Kunis is hot

Life: Fine. I purged. Feel impatient.Been like, 131 point freaking 2 for like,the past three days and I am beginning to get annnngrrrryyy. A few more days like this and I will turn into the incredible hulk (I'm talking about the large and in charge part, not the green part)

WTF is wrong with me. For some reason I cannot type today or maybe it is just my damned keyboard hating me.

Let me test this. I will carefully type "I hate food with a passion" slowly and making no corrections.

"I hate food ith a passins"

Its the keyboard. FML. Anyway, I have a story for ya.

Remember M? Well she had this thing for this black dude named R and apparently they almost did  the nasty but she stopped him because she had a yeasty problem or something. So  R told this girl C, who hates M, about this, and C sent out a mass text saying "M has a yeast infection."

And everytime C sees M in the hallway, she goes "yeeeeeeeeasssst" at her. Cruel, but HIGHlarious. Karma, bitch.

This picture kind of reminds me of her. How long will it take for me to get reported now? I bet three days.

Off to add more thinspo/inspo pics.

Much Love. 

Jellyfishing

Food: Good. Salad for dinner, tuna for lunch, oatmeal for breakfast. I'm dancing right now (stupidly, and alone, so nobody can see how dumb I look) and will be doing sit ups later, so hopefully tomorrow will be ANOTHER losing day! That's right, I lost like, .8 of a pound this morning, which is almost a whole pound. So I'm 131.2 right now. yaaay.

I will die of delight when I reach the 120's.

LilahLee/Kelsey!!?? WHERE DA FUCK YOU HIDING??? I MISS YOUR POSTS!!!

Taking a break from dancing to type this. Watching SpongeBob right now--I'm like so mature for my age--and I really wish that I could have a simple existence like that gorgeous sponge. Just, go Jellyfishing, make a Krabby Patty or two, and never have to worry about gaining weight because I'm a sponge. Plus he has TINY legs.

Apparently M hasn't been spreading le shizz about me. My friend Edgar told me its prolly because everyone hates her(why were we friends? sometimes I think all the artificial sweetner I use is actually crack. It would explain soo much) and likes me. I literally teared up.

Think I'm seeing Black Swan this weekend--yesss. Still on for Friday too. This is a boring post.

NEVER EVER EVER DRINK THIS:

Vitamin Water Zero in Orange. Tastes like sugar, piss, and cough syrup *gag*

Blogger is being a dumb fuck and won't let me upload an inspiration pic. EFF YOU.

Have a nice day!!!

It's Tee Shirt Tiiiimmmmeeeee

Food: Good. Had no breakfast because I slept in too late, and I went jogging so I wouldnt be tempted to have it. Uhh, had pb sammich for lunch, and a grilled chicken salad for dinner. And like, a graham cracker? I lost a pound this morning despite eating pound cake (geddit? pound cake LOLOLOL) yesterday, and I did a bunch of ab shit this morning.

Inspiration!

Annalynn McCord. Her face is fug, but anyone who can look that good ON CAMERA IN ECRU is my heroooo.

Firstly, party was okay. We need to find a new venue--its like a mouse hole. Too much sweat.

Secondly, Casey and I (truck man) are hanging out on Friday and then going out for dinner after. What he doesnt know is that we are hanging out at my best friend Erin's (same name) basketball game and going out with her and her bf for dinner. That will be my secret surprise, so shhhhh.

I think I want to order some of those Walden Farms Products--I don't feel deprived in what I'm eating but I just kind of wanna try. If anyone out there has tried it, hit me up with some deets.

No word on M--I think she hasnt even gone spreading shit about me. Maybe because Bitch Knows Bitch is WROOOONNNNGGGGG.

Whatever. I go back to school tomorrow(ew) and I'll see her in the hallway with her fucking ugly wardrobe and lopsided bangs, and we'll see if she tries to suck my blood.

I bet Casey would if I let him. He's such a freak. I'm such a bitch.

Been watching Jersey Shore like,all weekend. Why is it always on?

I think me and Snookie Snickers would get along like, really well. I like pickles. Plus she always has on  like, awesome slippers. I love slippers. I need to get me some new slippers.

Future BFF. We can wear fuzzy slippers, decorate trucker hats, and drink Cherry Coke by the liter.

Kind of a boring day--Erin came over (the friend, I'm  not schizo or anything) and we chilled. Played Mario Kart. Drank Life Water.

I smell like an onion--I hate it. I tried to pick them off of my salad but they kept hiding from me!!!


Much lurve.

January First

Heyyyooooooooo!

I've made quite the list--of resolutions--that I intend to keep this new year.

Resolutions
Learn French
Lose at least 20 pounds
Be happy with my body
Visit my aunt in Brittany
Get drunk at a beach party
Have tan lines
Do SOMETHING with my hair
Be nicer and gossip less
Stop procrastinating and finish my school shit on time
Keep all my resolutions.

Anyway, as far as today, I gained a pound but I knew that would happen, just because I had a shit load of Sour patch kids and whutnot yesterday, but I am not going to slip up again and just get in a cycle of lose-gain.

Uhumm. Casey wont leave me the fuck alone. He's like a retarted little puppy dog. Good morning and Good Night and ASK ME A QUESTION.

Yesterday he asked me "ummm lol whats ur favorite things for boys to do?"

Like, are you that dumb? I was like "Sex." and kept going on about it. Then I told him that I sniffed mouse poison and asked him if he liked bottles and HE STILL IS LIKE "I think I am ready for a girl like you."

You mean a crazy bitch? Oh, okay. I dont liiiikeeee him.

if you wanna know what he looks like, then ta-da.

Lookit me n mah trusty TRUCKKK.

Well whatever. I'm going to a hoes n ceos party in like, two hours, and he won't be there.



Hopefully M won't be either--crazy bitch blocked me on Facebook (serious act of aggression) deleted her Tumblr (Idk why it matters) AND called me mentally unstable. This is from the girl that has a family who doesn't clean up vomit on the walls until it really smells.

I dooonot care.

Love you all,

Erin